You know, I have been struggling a bit lately.The stress of 4th year and the pressure I am feeling about moving on after school has caused me to lose confidence in my abilities not only as an animator but as an artist in general. Sometimes it can be so hard not to compare yourself to your peers, and I just feel like I'm not at their level, or the level I'd like to be at.
Then it seemed like everything I tried was failing and I just started to spiral into this really self-defeatist attitude.
this sort of thing doesn't just affect me badly but it affects my relationships as well and I can tell it was starting to weigh on my boyfriend that I was coming home in a horrible mood everyday... not to mention the fact that it has totally stunted any motivation or creative energy I had.
So I promised myself and Rodger that I would force myself to be positive instead of cracking under the stress. And behold! I solved my puppet's dress problem, and stress-free created a working prototype that I think is beautiful. Now I can finally see a glimpse of the vision I had in my head. And all because I just made that small effort to relax and try to enjoy what I am doing.
Animation is just too tedious and hard not to be loving it while you are doing it. You'd go bat-shit-crazy.
The thing is, that you can have everyone around you being supportive and telling you that you are doing great, but that doesn't matter to you if you don't agree with them. So do yourself a favor, I guess haha.
My camera is dead at the moment but there will be pictures to come very soon. I am so close to being able to begin animating!
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